行到水穷处 坐看云起时

大山我回来了

我想很多人恐怕不明白我在说什么

没关系 有一小部分人知道 然后其他人只要祝福我就可以了

 

反正大山我回来了 通常情况下 山自己去找穆罕默德都是没什么好结果的

我也不例外

但是没关系 大山我本来想要得到的东西已经得到了

just a result

and now i have it

it's enough

 

不过此次行动得到了多方支持 在此表示感谢

特别鸣谢：大贝、晓立、菁菁、蓉蓉姐姐、Lydia、Ella、Vicky、凯莉、小F、小宝

天哪 真不敢相信 这么多人知道了我曾以为一辈子不会泄露的秘密

你们对结果各有看法 我都会洗耳恭听的

anyway

我现在要重新拥抱生活了 你们都不会离开我的哦 

我不是一个很果敢的人 好在我有韧劲互补

所以 鄙人做的决定 不会轻易改变

 

同时 我也承认自己很善变

要我改变对人或者事情的看法不算很难

所以几个月前我还百思不得其解 扭捏到不行的问题

前几个礼拜突然想通了

没有什么开导 只是睡前听了一首歌

王力宏 不要害怕

 

穆罕默德不去找山 山就自己去找穆罕默德！

我相信未来的自己不会后悔

我相信山即便找不到穆罕默德 也可以开始更好的生活！

 

一定没有想到 我来这边经历最多的居然是离别

从第一天到现在 5个多月时间里说的再见比过去20年的都要多

习惯了校园那种 三五年才分别一次

突然很不适应随时都会分手的成人世界

总以为至少要一起走一段

胖瑶说酒店的流动性都很大 希望我们能在不断的阵痛中形成最和谐的team

但愿如此

 

铁打的营盘 流水的兵

铁打的校园 流水的青春

铁打的饭店 流水的员工

i've said goodbye to lots of brilliant ppl.

lydia mike paul julia finch rose jasper dennis

and now it's your turn

goodbye mr.robert

u r the 1st DGM i met

i really learned somethings from u

i'll remember all the things

the jokes, the smile, the lesson, the sigh, the speech, the dinner

u watched this hotel born

u were here when this was still a construction

u r the 1st employee of the hotel

u deserve all the applause

thought i've done all the meetings in my life~

stupid!

always money talk, always nonsense

before sleep, it was a damn meeting that would never stop until 24pm

and when i was awake this morning, there's anonther breifing waiting for me...

so do the meeting minutes...

even during the lunch, it was a talk BTW boss and chef, boss and Mgr., boss and Director

holy shit!

and the worst thing is i didnt see any result or effect

but a lot of foolish decisions

my gosh!

it's too tired to be such a secretary without hope

i really love my hotel

i really admire my boss

but now, they all seem to be hopeless

sorry, i gotta go for meal, coz there's a meeting on 1.30pm

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

I just cant tell. Difficult to speak. Too heavy to take. But nobody to blame. It seems like turning to a one-way street, everybody may make this kind of mistake, just sooner or later.

1st time to feel so lonely, desperate. I've tried my best, but still screw up again. Nothing's left after the war but lots of nonsense and regrets. It's too easy to damage this kind of love, coz it's not hard to get it.

They changed, they all changed. I can do nothing but watch them. I've told myself, no matter what happened, I have to move on! However, it doesnt work at all, coz i cant just watch them die.

See my goldenfish, she's dead all ends up. So do the complicated stuff. I couldnt help her, though I've tried.

I dont know how long this war would take, wait for another day. Without confidence, without the mask, I wish there will be a tomorrow in time.